Being a mommy is the most amazing feeling. I can't imagine feeling a stronger love than this! I love being able to hold her and kiss her sweet little face. I love it when she looks at me and I know she knows who I am. She is the most beautiful person in my eyes. And she looks so much like her wonderful daddy. :) (Thank heaven! lol)
I am SO grateful for this amazing experience because not everyone gets to have it! After I miscarried with my first I felt as though I would never be happy again. I had so much hate and anger inside of me. At everything and everyone. I thought I would never be the same person again, and even though I had a wonderful friend to share my feelings with, it didn't diminish my sadness or anger, it only made it easier to bare. Then, things started to change once I was pregnant again. I was extremely scared that I would lose this baby. I felt as though it was too good to be true. I was excited, but nervously reserved. The first time I heard her heart beating was a little miracle for me. And since that time my anger, sadness, pain, and hate all melted away. I now don't need to make myself happy... clothes, shoes, nails, and hair don't matter to me. She is what matters to me and she is my happiness.
This in no way means that I won't shop or get my hair done and it also doesn't mean that I won't enjoy myself from time to time with worldly things. But my daughter and my husband come first in my life. Their happiness is the most important thing to me now. They ARE my world. They are my everything!
Brailey with her daddy :) the TWO best things to happen in my life.
Such a beautiful girl! :D
So innocent :)
I can't wait to see what the future holds for my little family.
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